You were my amazing boyfriend. I still never forget the day I first laid eyes on you. You were the cutest, most handsome boy in the world. I’m so glad that we started talking, even though we had met in the past. I knew that when we started going out that it was a brand new beginning not just for us but for me. When I was with you I felt on top of the world, I loved my life with you just because you were mine, because I had you, my darling, who I wanted for the rest of my life. I couldn’t have asked for anything better, you really were my perfection, the love of my life and my beautiful hero, you were like an angel to me, constantly lingering around me making me feel safe and being my guardian. I never ever wanted to lose you, I can’t bare the thought of never being with you again. I loved our play dates, the way you’d hold me all the time, the way you kissed me and every little detail in between. You’re so amazing, you always looked after me, you looked after all of us; your family, your friends, my family, my friends. You were so caring and honest. I love you because you were always happy and you could brighten my day by just smiling at me or kissing me, no matter what that day had thrown at me. I really miss you, I miss being by your side. I wish I could wake up next to you every morning for the rest of my life, fall asleep in your arms every night until death did us part.

I love you, more then anyone in the whole entire world ever could.

Please come back to me.

Hey,
I don’t know if you ever realize but my feelings for you still haven’t changed and I still love you with all my heart. You will always be the boy for me, nobody could ever replace you. You’re an amazing boy, you are kind, smart, cute, sweet and if that isn’t enough you are unbelievably perfect.
I love you, forever and a day, till my heart stops beating.  

“There I lay, at the opposite end of the bed,
as he told me about his horrible past, the intense
and heart throbbing moments he had to face,
on his very own.

His life went slowly down in flames, all because
of one stupid little mistake. I didn’t understand
why he stayed with her. It constantly made me wonder,
playing on my mind.

She slowly destroyed him.
Killing would be a better word and yet,
he didn’t even realize.
We all saw it, though, but he was in too deep, now
losing everyone;
his friends, his family and even himself.

I didn’t particularly know how to react
to some of the things he told me that night.
He spilt his heart out to me. He placed all
his trust and faith in me.
I broke down the walls that protected him;
I was the one person he had.

There were endless stories that
he spoke about, mainly bad ones, at that.
There were thousands that he still hadn’t spoken about.
That one day will come out.
It puzzled me how, through all of this, he was still
this strong, amazing boy,
whom I was falling for deeper and deeper, every moment.

I reached out my small, pale hands and placed them
gently on top of his warm, soft hands.
At that very moment I knew that this was a forever thing,
we both needed each other more than anything
and we were going to fight through anything.

We were meant to be.”

 Gosh, I miss him.

I love you,

Although we were young, you were the boy for me, you were perfect for me in every single way and I never was so sure of something in my life. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. You were my world, I am in love with you, nothing will ever change that. I am sorry that you had to deal with my horrible mood swings, I was so happy with you even though sometimes it didn’t seem so, the truth is I just wanted you to hold me and kiss me. I wish you would never replace me or never let me go. Forever and a day wasn’t even long enough. I gave you my heart, even gave you the key, I was yours, I still am. I know I was a bitch, a jerk, and you didn’t need my childish moods and acts. I’m sorry for every time I hurt you, for all the little things that I should have known better then to do. You were my everything. I’m sorry I was a horrible girlfriend, I was just so afraid of losing you, of being away from you, I suppose in the end I lost you anyway. I had so much to lose that everything was a threat to me. Every fight I regretted and I just wanted to run and kiss you but sometimes I had to stand my ground, so did you, we were both stubborn. I am truly in love with you, you kept my heart beating, my life going. I would have stood by you forever, I need you, I do. You meant the world to me, and my greatest fear came true, which was losing you. I hate that I was stupid enough to let you go. My nightmares have become better than reality because at least we are together in them at some stage. I can’t explain to you what you mean to me, how much I love you, how much I need you. My love for you cannot be put into words. You are everything to me. I love you, not in the teenage romance way, in the true love way, in which I know it is real. I love everything about you, your smile, your face, your hair, your eyes, your nose, your lips, you arms, your body, everything. We would fit perfectly together. The spaces between our fingers fit perfectly together. I love your scent, your laugh, your personality, your humour, your skin, your hands, how you understood me on a level that most people didn’t. The way you protected me, from everything including the dark. I love the sound of your voice, and how you would say those three words. I need you so much more than you can possibly imagine, my entire world revolved around you. I was happier than I was ever before. I wish I could spend the rest of my ife with you, I wanted to have the perfect future that we planned together. Our own happily ever after, our own disney fairytale. I really struggle to express how much I need you to be mine again but just know, straight from my heart, I love you, I am in love with you and I cannot apologize enough for messing up so much during our relationship and after we broke up. I will love you forever, because you were the best thing that ever happened to me and I am sorry that I took you for granted. I would do anything to have you back, as my world, my everything, my other half, my true love, my life support, my best friend but most of all my beautiful boyfriend. I miss you, I think about you every day, and I fear that you have replaced me already, I just only hope that maybe you’ll come back to me, and we can be stronger than we were before.

Love from Keeley Jane.